lets back date the post cos i got no time to post :)


Monday 15th January 2007
:Life is getting worse i guess, i don't know what to do. I am utterly confused by the people around me.
I am going back to Singapore at last-something i can rejoice about. Life is so much tougher though because even more things would remind me of the sad past which can never be forgotten. The sad past... actually it was a happy one before it all turned grey slowly and now is totally black. It's so dark that i cannot ever imagine that i was in there for such a long time. Life is good now well at least is slightly better already-suiting to the new life that is. A new life in a new year nice sentence but it can never happen life only come along once and it cannot ever reverse, live the life and the only life you've got. If i had a bad experience in the past, learn from it and now correct it and find ways to make yourself happy:) wish you all the best people. Strive for what you want, be persistent,determined do not ever give up.
ps. MEI take care okay? I going to America already, which means this would only be our only way to communicate :) see yea!! hahas..

wrote this at work so cannot post have to backdate it again sry people...


Wednesday 17th January 2007
I thought it would be better once i am back in Singapore but i guess i am utterly wrong sobs. I wonder why and i always wonder why i am in this state. Oh wells something has to end before another happy life can start so life miseries have to be ended. And for it to end i have to end it myself. Life miseries has to end so yeah i guess this kinda life has to end first before i could start another life. Oh wells i know that this life ha to end first buy i and now thinking and sill finding an answer so as to how to end this kinda miserable life. This thinking has been around for a long long time but until now i still have not found any answers or even a clue so as to how to stop all these crap.

i realise one thing the more time you spend on something the more you understand about it. but why does it not apply to life? the more you live the more you feel unknown to this world? hais sad times cannot be avoided. got to go. cyaz ppl...

heh.. at last is another monday already. i am looking forward to go back to singapore. oh wells. once in singapore have alot to do eh.like go dive center n check out trips and blah blah blah. sad after that have to go to london for the IBM incentive trip hais so little time so much to do.den after that must go back for chinese new year. den go dive den there i am setting off for america wherei start school WHEE!!!! at last school.... heard about the new a maths syllabus and its so totally crap hais. people still expect me to know what they are learning hais i am so screwed better study and stop playing already!!

life is so flat. it looks like the sea from 38000 feet it looks so calm and serene. nothing happens...is so flat until you don't ever want to live in it again. anyways i am now back in the office juz bored. staring at the shares and staring at the company stock. what to do? nothing play audition. play maple?? play until sian already oh wells now i am going for lunch already. good luck to people who are schooling this year. happy schooling people !! ahahs..

sorry for the late post.It has been hectic these few days, full of life's ups and downs. okay i get straight to the point. It's New Year's Eve and it was near midnight. At midnight, things happen as per normal everyone gets to countdown and blah blah. Wine's toasting everywhere and the surrounding neighbours lit fireworks. So my cousins and I decided to go down to light up insted of lighting the fireworks at my balcony at level 28. Downstairs we met this security guard who asked whether we wanted to go to the rooftop where there's supposed to be a helicopter landing area. we went up and up and up, to the 35th floor by lift and went to the rooftop by the emergency staircase. we had to climb a series of stairs and lastly a stair vertically up. it has a nice view but everyone was terrified because it was windy and also it was dark. there we lighted off the fireworks. it was beautiful,but horrifying. the scariest part is that we had to go down the staircase looking 36 floors down. well thats the most horryfying thing for the start of this new year. hahas..... well now i am in the office juz bored and lonely again. no one to talk to and with too much work. hais. post another tym bahs...

PS. sorry mei i nvr post before i go back home,was in a rush :)